Insomnia
By,
Zahid bin Ghulam
Trying to sleep but my eyes open wideWith voices whispering from every sideBattles in my mind and nowhere to hidea futile resistance against the rising tide
Thought after thought taunting my soulAs this constant barrage takes its tollEating away slowly now a gaping holeMy mind going crazy and out of control
I search frantically and fail in despairFor something elusive which was always thereSomething tossed away without a care its prolonged absence I can no longer bear
Peace of mind I no longer possess,A nightmarish life I must confessSo much hardships and so much stressA constant companion is pain and distress
Tossing and turning all night longmiserable and sad -everything is wrongwhat is life? and where do I belong?Millions of questions and all answers gone
My heart is riddled with grief and sorrowAnd with these thoughts my tears flowAll hope lost my heart sinks lowWithout a care what happens tomorrow
Finely balanced on the edge of a knifeI see the stranger who lives my lifean emotionless tyrant causing havoc and strifeA corrupted soul where ignorance is rife
My whole world is hypocrisy and liesAnd no more goodness do I recognizeEverything I possess I begin to despiseAnd this voice inside, I hear its cries
Of a promise made before the days of oldIn a meeting with my lord - I am toldThat forever in my heart, tawheed I would holdA promise broken for a miserable price sold
This murmuring voice so long ignoredTo delay it further, I can not affordSo this mission of truth, I have taken aboardWith conviction my shield and truth my sword
An uphill struggle an eternal fightBattle-lines drawn between wrong and rightReturning to my lord, I head for the lightSubmerged in Salah is my only respite
Lifting my hands to my lord I pray'let ignorance go and let faith stayThrough your mercy show me the wayGive me guidance so that I can obey'
With an open heart I read the QuranI discover my Creator's will and planWord of my Lord, a guidance for manMissing pieces restored now I am one
Content and happy, no more tears to weepContent and happy, I fall asleepPeace and happiness with faith running deepPeace and happiness - forever to keep.
Trying to sleep but my eyes open wideWith voices whispering from every sideBattles in my mind and nowhere to hidea futile resistance against the rising tide
Thought after thought taunting my soulAs this constant barrage takes its tollEating away slowly now a gaping holeMy mind going crazy and out of control
I search frantically and fail in despairFor something elusive which was always thereSomething tossed away without a care its prolonged absence I can no longer bear
Peace of mind I no longer possess,A nightmarish life I must confessSo much hardships and so much stressA constant companion is pain and distress
Tossing and turning all night longmiserable and sad -everything is wrongwhat is life? and where do I belong?Millions of questions and all answers gone
My heart is riddled with grief and sorrowAnd with these thoughts my tears flowAll hope lost my heart sinks lowWithout a care what happens tomorrow
Finely balanced on the edge of a knifeI see the stranger who lives my lifean emotionless tyrant causing havoc and strifeA corrupted soul where ignorance is rife
My whole world is hypocrisy and liesAnd no more goodness do I recognizeEverything I possess I begin to despiseAnd this voice inside, I hear its cries
Of a promise made before the days of oldIn a meeting with my lord - I am toldThat forever in my heart, tawheed I would holdA promise broken for a miserable price sold
This murmuring voice so long ignoredTo delay it further, I can not affordSo this mission of truth, I have taken aboardWith conviction my shield and truth my sword
An uphill struggle an eternal fightBattle-lines drawn between wrong and rightReturning to my lord, I head for the lightSubmerged in Salah is my only respite
Lifting my hands to my lord I pray'let ignorance go and let faith stayThrough your mercy show me the wayGive me guidance so that I can obey'
With an open heart I read the QuranI discover my Creator's will and planWord of my Lord, a guidance for manMissing pieces restored now I am one
Content and happy, no more tears to weepContent and happy, I fall asleepPeace and happiness with faith running deepPeace and happiness - forever to keep.
Dedicated to my brothers out there who are looking for peace from a brother who has found it in Salah and in the worship of his Lord.
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